Blatant Disregard for all things responsible.......

The beginning of May cannot come fast enough for me. I'm cheering on the end of Spring semester like I'm at the finish line of a long distance race. All the while, I've been there, with the cups over-flowing with lemon-lime Gatorade. I'm screaming " GO! GO! GO!! You can do it!! "

Don't get me wrong, I'm not going to have that much extra time after college is over for the summer, but every little bit helps.

I guess I'm just looking forward to not always feeling like I should be doing something. With school, you could always be doing something. After you finish one HW assignment, there's always going to be another one, or you can study. So how many hours do you spend doing these things on top of class time and travel time? Now I can do relaxing things like: work some over-time to get my broke college goin' arse out of CC debt, or perhaps I can keep working on my living room so, eventually, I can sit down and watch TV in peace without staring at the spackle. But I can't complain, if I didn't have this stuff to do, I'd bitch even more because life would be BORING. So, you can't win, just face it, there's always going to be something.

You just have to appreciate the positives in life: you're not a dead bug on the bottom of someone's shoe, or a bird with a broken wing, you're just a whiny American who can be a super-hero so you have to settle for being Average. But if you work hard, you can become slightly mediocre-plus. Then, maybe, if you decide live in a blimp, hovering the world and floating to various countries. Performing experiments that could potentially cure cancer and , when you have time, fighting terrorism. If you decide to do these things, you MIGHT just be above-average (but there's a lot of paper-work to fill out).

My Menagerie

I moved into a house on the edge of town.I've had bugs of yellow, black, green and brown.I've had walls with holes, dents and cracks.I've had floors that needed much more than wax.The siding on my house is old and falling off.I had to have the chimney cleaned to stop a constant cough.I can't use my living room until I finish painting.I have to open windows, to keep myself from fainting.Everywhere I look there are things to be replaced.I've been in every hardware store, the cashiers know my face.But I don't know if I can stay aloof.Now that a family of Raccoons has fallen from inside my roof.

I gotta-git pa-pa-pa-pa-paid!!!

"Don't waste my Mutha'F***in' time!" (Al Pacino, Heat)

I usually don't talk about my finances, I keep that under my hat (or stuffed in a mattress), but I have to. Lately, it seems like every thing has increased in price by 25% - 30%. You go to a mom-and-pop deli and buy a sandwich, it'll wind up running you close to ten bucks with a drink. You go to the movies and get two regular cokes & popcorn- you're looking at $30 easy. If you go to a comic shop and buy 4 comic books (thin ones) - It will cost you $12-17.00. Inflation? Is everyone feeling the pinch of the hike in fuel prices? Probably. I really don't have time to research this stuff right now because I'm too busy working to pay off utilities, and I'm going to college so that, one day, I'll make more money. People say that money is the root of all evil, I doubt these people ever had to look through a garbage can for lunch (I mean, I haven't either, but the number of people in my neighborhood who ARE is growing). I'm just wondering when we're going to stop? Am I going to have to re-finance my home to buy a cup of gasoline? Is there going to be a 1000.00 bill? Perhaps a ten-thou? I'm exaggerating, but think about it. We're outsourcing a lot of our product manufacturing, are farmers are being paid NOT to grow things and we're trying our hardest not to use any of OUR oil supply. Yet, we're still the land of opportunity and our streets are paved with chocolate (or was it gold?). I've heard that the US is mainly driven by the service industry lately. This is a depressing thought, Why? Because I've worked for various companies that provide service for most of my life. No matter what you're doing, you're always a customer service representative of some kind; and people can SUCK. no wonder people are so nasty on the highways, everyone is on their way home from 8+ hours of dealing with other people. I don't what this has to do with the price of gas in America, but I'm complaining and I tend to snowball. We'll see what happens, who knows? Maybe we'll get another Democrat in the White house and things will get better?

Rt 17

I'm a busy person and I get bored if I don't switch things up every once in a while. For instance, I have a month left of this semester and I found myself not wanting to go anymore and I couldn't figure out why. I'm drawing naked nasty-looking people in Life Drawing and I'm constructing a research paper, piece by piece in Communication research and foundations. Yesterday I met with my advisor (who's harder to track down than Bin Laden) and I registered for Fall's courses. After I did this, it was like a huge weight had been lifted off of my shoulders. I was actually psyched to go (HELLO!! IT'S IN THE FALL!!!). I suddenly found that I had a second wind and I didn't mind the thought of finishing up these classes. So, that's what I need to do when I'm feeling not quite right about something: trick myself. I'm a big believer in "tricking" yourself. My subconscious is a bitch to deal with sometimes.

Here's an example: In the morning, I have a hard time getting up in time for work. A lot of times I wake up to the alarm, look at the clock and promptly go back to sleep. Some times I wake up late. One of the things that has helped is setting my clock about 20 minutes fast. This way, I wake up and I think I'm late so I move quickly, but when I get down stairs I realize that I have 20 minutes more than I expected. This doesn't always work, a lot of times I'll wake up and think: "It's 7:40, I should get up. No wait! I have an extra 20 minutes! I think I'll go back to sleep!" Of course, the best move would be to go to bed earlier, but what fun would that be? Also, with a sleep junkie like me, going to bed earlier doesn't always kick the problem. Maybe it's a bad example?

I guess the point is: If some thing is bothering you, it may not be what you're actually thinking about. It may be something else, something deeper in your head, something you barely notice. OH SH*T! gotta go! Left the iron on!