I'm having a hard time trying not to be irate right now. I applied for a student loan back in June, apparently I contacted a Dark cyber elf in the netherzone, because, now i have "schroedinger's" Master promissory note: It's there, it's not there, we can see it, but we can't see it. My money is being held up for weeks now and all I'm getting is fertilizer speech: "Oh we still don't see it yet, fill out another one..." "Oh, it's listed as 'pending', you can tell your school to contact us.." meanwhile, the bills that I need that money to pay, are mounting. I get so emotional and stressed about finances. I get to the point where I can't calm down at all. Last night, I made the mistake of drinking coffee after 4 PM because I had a ton of homework to do. Well I ripped right through the homework, but the caffiene kept me up. I got two hours of sleep, and then "wondered why, every little thing sent me into an irrational rage" what ever could have caused it? I really can't underestimate my tendency to stress out and for my body to react in kind. I've had a rough day. I vented and vented and vented. I punched my steering wheel, banged my hand on my desk, I cursed at people, I spazzed out. Not a big day for self control. I really need to work on "grounding" techniques. i have to stay present and then the physical feelings will begin to dissipate (One can only F8cking hope!!)