Depression and self care: I get up everyday and it's immediately apparent to me how much work I need to do in my life and how much I'm falling behind on it. I have to give myself credit, it has gotten better over the years. I've made a lot of headway towards being organized and clean. Now I feel like I'm %60 "there", which is awesome, but at the same time, I started going back to school. This makes things difficult again. No time, No energy, no drive left at the end of the day to clean, move things and put away. I picture this cozy place in my mind, where I want to be. Where the tiled kitchen floor is nice and clean. Where I can come downstairs in my pajamas and make a nice warm cup of Hug coffee. Maybe make some oatmeal. Put everything away and keep it clean.. Walk across the clean floor in my slippers, sit on the couch... It seems attainable, right? Well, now i currently get up with exactly enough time to gather all of my needed possessions for the day and get the hell out of the house. Walking past laundry that needs to be washed, floors that need to be vacuumed and mopped, boxes of crap that need to be sorted and put away. I feel like my thought process is like this: 6:00AM Ego: "Get up" Id: "No" 6:15AM Ego: "Get up" Id: "NO" 6:30 Ego: "Get up" ID: " 5 more minutes" Ego: "NO" ID: (LONG AND DRAWN OUT SIGH) Superego: SHIT SHIT SHIT (looking around the bedroom) SHIT SHIT SHIT! (walking down the stairs) SHIT SHIT SHIT! (walking through the TV room, dining room, Kitchen, side stairs) EGO: "I can only do what I can do. I'm not the worst human on the planet, I'm suffering from depression working 40 hour weeks and going to school....." SUPER EGO: "ID!! YOU ARE A CHILDISH ASSHOLE! WHEN ARE YOU GOING TO GROW UP HUH?!?!?" ID: "KISS MY ASS!" and it's off to work.....