Ugh! Sobriety sucks!

Especially when you don't drink but you wake up feeling like you're hung over. I thought sleep was supposed to make you feel "rested." Instead I feel like someone took sandpaper to my eyeballs and gave them a bloodshot shine. I some times feel like it would feel good to pluck my eyeballs out of my head and soak them in a hot cup of coffee. Realtistically though, that would hurt and I probably wouldn't be able to get passed the first one. I know I'd regret it too, because, well I don't know, I WOULD BE BLIND!!!! But it's a beautiful exaggeration of how I feel right now.

Sometimes I feel like I'm being totally childish. Like the things that I spend my time on are supposed to be fulfilling some 13 year-old's need and I just never got it. I think I'm still trying to be "cool." I'm trying to get in great shape (not good shape, mind you. GREAT shape), I'm learning martial arts (which helps with stress and getting in shape), I'm still doing music when I can (and I want to do more). I'm looking for a job that's well paying as well as enjoyable.Are these a 13 year old's wants?

Perhaps these are closer to pre-pubesence: The urge to go through a record store and buy a bunch of CDs. Or the urge to go to a movie store and buy a bunch of movies, or perhaps a video game store? The urge to sit on my ass and watch movies? The urge to beat every video game I own? My media lust hasn't died down as much as it's plateaued.